Calm before the storm

14 days B.C.

I can see it clearly. Four tables with fresh flowers on top. Bookshelves covering the wall from left to right, cozy couch in front of it. There’s an old second-hand rug on the floor. Handmade art decorates the space. In the back, a small counter with the cash desk. A chalkboard menu stating the sandwich of the day. Coffee and tea served from a pot, simple. No complicated ratios of milk and foam or specific temperatures the leaves have to be steeped in. On busy days we run it together. On quiet days, we play Lego with the guests at the large wooden table in the middle of the lunchroom.

It’s a good idea.
When we come back from this trip to Ghana we will work on the business plan.
We will go talk with the owners of the location we have in mind.
We will look at the costs and benefits.
We will do research on how we can make this profitable enough to pay our mortgage.

We decide here and now, at this beautiful beach along the Ghanaian coastline, that we will finally look ahead. After our life has been focused on J.’s health for the last three years, we will now be brave enough to make plans for the future.

We will not live our lives in fear.
We will not use his life expectancy as a reason to stay in our comfort zone.
We will move forward.

Dammit.

We were supposed to move forward.

 

When I think of life before cancer, this is the last clear memory that pops up. Did you have future plans that cancer sabotaged? 

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